Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Time for your (4 year) Checkup!

I thought singing a line from one of her favorite shows (Doc McStuffins) would help ease the anxiety of talking about her checkup. "Time for your checkup, time for your checkup...gonna listen to your hearbeat, fix you up ready to go...." But silly me....she wasn't scared at all. No need for silly songs. She knew that shots were on the agenda that day and surprisingly seemed okay with it. I was perplexed. Ya see, I still vividly remember the day my mom took me to get my shots for school. VIVIDLY. So much anxiety and tears and screams. Eeeeeeeek. I really shouldn't compare my somehow well adjusted child to my neurotic self. It's not very fair to her. Lol. She waltzed in on top of the world but quickly needed some snuggles while we waited. Daddy walked across the street for moral support....for me. Ha! 


Once the nurse called her back she perked up and was all smiles for her checkup....
 

She weighed 40 pounds and was 36 inches tall...without her high heels....


Everything was pretty laid back until the needles showed up. She didn't fuss much but there were some tears for a moment. Thank goodness for Riley holding her legs down...no way I could've done it. Bella Kay slept away in her carrier...good thing...I don't want her finding out how bad shots are at such a young age. ;) 

When we left with her updated vaccine sheet in hand I told her that it meant she could go to school. Big smiles ensued. 

Monday, August 25, 2014

Being Big Sissy

 
Bella was an hour old when Hallie fell in love with her. Riley carried her into the room and her face lit up with a HUGE ear to ear grin the moment she finally laid eyes on her. Best friends at first sight. No, for real though. There was just something about the way she looked at her let me know how much she truly cared about her sister. Hallie is a nurturer at heart and has always been concerned about the way others feel. She's a pleaser and wants to make people happy. Hmmmm. Sounds familiar. ;) Needless to say, she immediately took to caring for her tiny new friend and sister. She wanted to hold the oxygen to her little nose, she tried to make sure Bella was warm and she was very concerned about checking out all her fingers and toes. All checked out well. Once that was finished she began doing something that scared me. She started acting like a stinker. A big stinker. She didn't want to leave the room, she got upset when others held her sister and she sure didn't want anyone telling her what she was going to do. So when Riley carried her out of the room crying and screaming my stomach quickly sank. Is this how things are going to be from now on? I began to feel guilt for sending Hallie away for the night while we stayed with Bella. I wondered if her little mind understood why she couldn't stay with us since it was getting late. I hated the thought of her thinking she wasn't a part of the big day. It broke my heart. But naturally I couldn't sulk for too long because I had a room full of people ready to meet our baby. The next day Hallie arrived around lunchtime and I was so relieved to see the huge smile on her face. A bit of nervousness too. It was all so new, that was obvious by the way she cautiously stepped toward me and the baby. She was more than ready to hold her baby sis so we set up a spot on the bed where she could get some one on one time with Bella. It was the best moment of my life thus far. My baby holding my other baby. Brings me to tears just writing about it. 



She quickly became an expert on everything baby. Bella this and Bella that....she knew it all. She told us what Bella liked and what she was thinking....yes, it was precious. She also wanted to have a say so in who could and couldn't hold her. The only two that made the cut were herself and mommy. What about that other fella that we all love? Daddy didn't make the list. But he was allowed to take Hallie to the gift shop for some big sister goodies. My heart melted all over again when she returned to the room with a gift for her sister as well....a tiny pink elephant. :) Big sis had quite an eventful afternoon with us. In addition to baby holding duty she was involved in a "code pink" drill throughout the hospital. Our missing child played the part well and "disappeared" to do some shopping down in the gift shop AGAIN where she bought even more stuffed animals.  They called a code for a "three year old girl dressed in leopard pants." I sat in the room thinking about how I'd remind her of this story someday.

I'd have to describe her behavior over the next two days as unstable. Not towards Bella. But more towards life in general. She was easy to anger and threw quite a few fits with no obvious trigger. We cut her some slack with all of the new changes rocking her world and rested in the awesome truth that she loves Bella more than I could've ever imagined.....


Bella in her living baby doll. One that she takes extra good care of and handle ever so gently....


And I'm perplexed to say that she even pretends to breastfeed her on occasion....


Diaper changes and clothing selection doesn't happen until Hallie enters the room. I often hear her hustling to get to the nursery and screaming "wait for me!!!!!" Once she makes her way to us she grabs her pink stool, fetches me a diaper and talks sweet talk to sissy. Or places a stuffed cat on her face like so......



Being big sissy was sort of confusing at first though. Lots of people coming to the house to snuggle the little sister. Big sister started to feel a little left out. But no need to fear....Uncle Spencer to the rescue!!!!


We feel like most of her problem was due to the fact that she didn't want anyone else to hold HER baby...


She gets out of bed at the crack of dawn just to be a part of bathtime....

 
Or stay up late to help....
 
 

She insists of pushing the cart when we get to the baby section at Walmart. After all, she knows what Bella needs....



She's even fit in some snuggle time in the middle of her daily meditation....


Bella gets a lot of face time, if you will....



Hal has spent the majority of the summer at home with Bella and I. It's been all about a life of leisure for this girl....


Well, both girls actually.....



 
I hear the words "I think you need to take a picture of me and sissy" at least ten times a day.....
 
 

Meme came to visit and was wonderful about giving Hallie some extra special attention. She was so serious about her preschool "ME book" and proudly explained each page to Meme....


She's getting way too big for my liking!



When we initially told Hallie that she was going to be a big sister it was obvious that she was excited. Yet I could tell that she didn't know what to expect. I worried that she would feel sad about the attention I'd be giving to another child. Naturally I imagined at least a little bit of jealousy. I sometimes pictured her getting upset by the baby crying. But no. None of those worries were necessary. The minute she hears a cry or even a whimper she runs to Bella with the nearest pacifier and does ALL of the following....turns on the swing/bouncy seat, speaks in her sweetest voice right in Bella's face and plops that pacifier in place. I love seeing the accomplishment flash across her face when her efforts work. One day she ran in the bathroom while I was drying my hair and exasperated said "mommy, come quick! I tried everything to make her happy but she's still sad. I put her binky in and I turned the swing on and I danced and gave her a stuffed animal but she's still crying." Will never forget that moment! Funny and oh so sweet at the same time! She set me straight one day when I was having a rather frustrated moment. I asked aloud one afternoon, "Bella girl, what is going on with you?!?!" Hallie calmly looked up from her coloring and said "she's just doing her job mommy." Oh yeah, and what is that. "To cry" she put very simply. She's a wise little soul and a very good mini momma. There is no better way to describe this girl....natural born protector, best friend and the most loving big sister....




 
 










Princess Hallie's 4th Birthday

I guess it's true. Your children have to grow up. There's no exception clause. No way to bottle them up. I've tried. I asked her for a month straight to "please stop growing" and she would just laugh at me and keep on getting taller. Seriously though. Every morning as I sat holding my tiny newborn on the couch Hallie would waltz in wearing her jammies and looking like she'd grown another inch overnight. She would come snuggle up under my arm and I'd tell her I had a big question to ask.....she knew what I was going to ask so she'd beat me to the punch and say "mommy, I grew last night." She would usually follow up that statement with "it's what big girls do mommy." I often asked myself if it was normal to want to burst into tears every morning at the first sight of your child. I could literally see her getting bigger right before my very eyes and I needed it to stop. ;) 

She kicked off the big "4" celebration in style by going on a big shopping trip with Nanny. We'd been having a power struggle when it came to dressing and clothing selection so Nanny came up with a fantastic idea to take her on a shopping spree. The only rule: Hallie got to select her own items. She returned home with piles of clothes and four new pairs of shoes which she had proudly picked out all by herself. The newfound freedom has put an end to the meltdowns. And by some small miracle she doesn't have to wear pink pants EVERY SINGLE DAY any longer. Free retail therapy for mommy. Saves me loads of patience now. ;) Here she is doing some modeling for us after she returned from her big day with Nanny.....


The same day she created a new wardrobe they also took some time out for the trampoline park in Edmond. Hal jumped for an hour straight while Nanny looked on and sent me videos of the fun. I'm 100% sure that my four-year-old felt pretty special that day. She was also pretty stoked the day she finally got to wear her "Happy Birthday" attire that she selected......


Filling her room with balloons the night before her birthday is a tradition. It just is. I wrote that last sentence for my husband who seems to ask me every birthday eve without fail..."why are we doing this again?" Because. He may be a birthday scrooge but I think his question usually stems from the fact that I forget about the balloons and wait til the very last second to blow them all up. But it's so worth it to see what she has to say in the morning. On her second birthday the excitement quickly turned to tears when she realized that she couldn't pick up twenty balloons at once. The impossibility of it all left her devastated in a floor kicking tantrum. Ha! Last year she insisted on leaving the balloons in her room for days and days until they magically "disappeared" one day. More devastation. This year she was equally as excited but came in to the living room that morning asking me "where are all the pink and purple balloons?" Yep, that's my sassy four-year-old. We acknowledged 8:31 that morning and tried to explain that THAT was when her birthday officially began. She wasn't buyin' it. Maybe next year. ;) 

The girls and I left Riley at home to tend to a very special mission that morning. Gman and Meg were coming to town early that morning to assist him with the mission. As we backed out of the driveway dad's truck was pulling up. Hallie didn't notice a thing and I certainly didn't try to bring her attention to it. The girls were kind to their momma that morning while I was flyin' solo. At church she wished her July 27th birthday buddy, Karen, a happy day when Karen approached to give her birthday greetings. Hallie accidentally responded with "Happy birthday" instead of thank you but we got a good laugh seeing as how it was coincidentally very fitting.....


She received a multitude of birthday wishes at church to which she responded in a very surprised manner each time. I guess she forgot that her dress had a crown on it and the skirt had "happy birthday" confetti all over it. ;) The princess and I (and lil sis too) bought some time while the men were back at home putting together the swingset that Gman and Meg bought for her. She wanted McDonald's for lunch. Big shocker! Ha! The playplace was empty and I could tell she wasn't having as much fun as usual without a playmate so we did what any birthday girl and her momma should do.....got a mani and a pedi!!! A chair fit for a birthday girl......

 
Purple on her fingers and blue on her toes. A hilarious conversation with her new nail tech friend. Bella and I sat back and watched and tried to hold in laughter. She's just so goofy sometimes. No wait. All the time. The men were almost finished with their big project so we made one last birthday request happen (strawberry ice cream cone from Braums) and then we met Aunt B, Spencer, Gman, Meg and daddy at Subway for a quick lunch before the reveal. Hal was all smiles still.....



Since we had already eaten earlier that left Hallie and I antsy to get home to the big surprise. She knew there was something waiting at home....she just wasn't sure what it was. When I asked her if she had any ideas she would say either "balloons" or "a cake." So clearly she was about to have her hopes exceeded. ;) When we walked into the backyard I put a blindfood around her eyes (which looked hilarious on a little girl by the way) and I led her by hand to where she could see her gift. Once I removed the blindfold I don't think she knew what to think at first. She started running towards it and then looked back and asked if she could go see it. Well yes!!!!! She stopped midway to admire the new sandbox that was on the corner of the porch. Thanks Aunt Alta! Hal hopped on the round saucer swing first and gave thanks to Gman and Meg. It made me wonder where such a cool swingset was when I was younger. Since then we haven't been able to pry her out of the saucer. It looks like so much fun that if I didn't exceed the weight capacity you can bet I'd be in it too! 




She let sissy try it out.....

But not for long because Bella had some chatting to do with everyone.....




 
 

Hal clearly loved her new toys and got busy testing everything out....



 
 
Just like any other birthday party day I knew that getting her to take a nap would be like pulling teeth. And it was. She claimed that she didn't need one. Well, this picture tells otherwise.....
 

 
A nap didn't happen. Just lots of not napping.
 




Dad and Meg took a snooze on the couch, the guys messed around with the old truck in the garage and Bailey and I talked in Bella's room. The afternoon breezed by and before I knew it it was past time to load up and get to the waterpark. We didn't have much to carry in or setup. Hallelujah. I wanted to kick myself for the past three years of parties....weeks of work, hundreds of dollars and the same result. A happy girl. Would I do it again? Yeah, probably so. But that's my sickness. ;) Needless to say, my four-year-old princess adored her simple princess party at the waterpark....


And even more so she adored all of her little friends who flooded in.....






































The beauty that spills out of her little soul just blows me away....








 


An hour of swimming flew by and the cake was calling her name. Strawberry on the bottom, white on top. No need to ask her what color she wanted! The Cake Lady made us smile yet again with this princess castle cake....


Nanny helped Hallie light her candles as her sweet friends gathered round....





Make a big wish sweet girl....

 
Can't believe she's 4!!!
 

The littles enjoyed cake and then flocked around the birthday girl to help her open presents....




As always with Miss Hallie there was no rhyme or reason to emptying packages. Tissue paper flying, gifts being strewn about....all I knew was that she was having the best time ever. So I stood back and just watched.






We had a big surprise when Miss Gari spotted her party going on from the park and she stopped in so say hi. All of the Free Spirit kiddos came over for hugs and hi's....


Covered in green frosting and surrounded by a plethora of gifts fit for a princess....



The party began to wind down as Hallie gave hugs and thank you's to her guests and I snapped picture of anyone and everyone who would let me.....







 













 
Meme surprised us by showing up with Aunt Deedee. Such a treat! She had a long, rather taxing walk into the waterpark so David and Spence came up with a better way to get her back to the car.....
 
 
One last bit of fun on the train at the park. Well, fun for her. She wouldn't let me ride with her...told me she was a big girl and could ride alone. Mkay big girl, but your momma can call you her baby anytime she wants to....
 
 

 
We had our annual giant birthday balloon release in the backyard when we got home and settled in....
 

A special tradition that I have no doubt will continue for a very long time...


A great way to remember a very special woman who would have given the world to this little girl...

 
She held up four fingers to let Grammy know how old she was this year...
 
 
She wasn't ready to call it a day or take a bath so we sorted her birthday gifts into piles. Count me in!! She's so my daughter. We had a jewelry/lip gloss pile, a toy pile and an arts and crafts pile. Me thinks she loves organizing just as much as I do!
 

I quickly realized that the walls were closing in and at the rate that she was opening her new gifts the house would either have to be condemned by morning or the producers of Hoarders were going to come and visit us. All of the sorting and playing must've worn her out. Or wait, maybe it was that BIG BIG DAY she had had.....
 
 
Ok, definitely the BIG BIG DAY....
 

I gave her cheek four kisses that night. And then I cried. I tried not to. I wanted to curl up next to her and sleep with her that night in an attempt to soak up just a little more of this childhood phase. Because once it's gone....well, I don't want it to be gone. Is it sad that I went to bed that night trying to devise a plan to keep her at home longer?

I love you baby girl! Yes, baby. ;)